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Dear Friends,

This morning as I was in my secret place, God asked me to go and write what I was soaking in. Obedience. Remembrance. We are in a worship series at church right now. I was remembering the lyrics to a song yesterday that really grabbed my soul and humbled me. It was simple...I surrendered for you, surrender for me. 

Last week a friend said, Jeannie, “remember. God wants you to remember everything He has done for you. Remember.” 

I am drawn to my obedience scriptures. “Whatever He says to you, do it” John 2:5

Obedience brings freedom, purpose.

Obedience unlocks abundant life.

Obedience produces greater intimacy.

Obedience changes circumstances. Obedience changes you.

I remember when God began asking me to do things…simple things, but those simple things were a test and when obeyed would lead to small blessings. This track of obedience would divinely, strategically align me for the next level of obedience which would lead to larger blessings. Through the process my relationship with God changed. It became richer, more intimate. He gave me greater insight and vision. Jesus is the greater example of obedience. He said,  I have come to do the will of my Father. John 6:38. He stayed surrendered to obey. Shouldn’t we do the same? It is a commandment, If you love me obey me” John 14:15

Of course the journey is not always easy. Jesus’s  Crucifixion was certainly not easy. God has asked me to do things that were difficult. Things that went against my flesh. Things that was hard to explain. Things that others didn’t understand. Things that man persecuted me for in public and secret. However, God was faithful to whisper to me, to guide me, to assure me that I was in the center of His will and He was pleased. I found great comfort in reading a passage in the book Experiencing God. It read, “God’s ways and thoughts are so different from yours that they will often appear wrong, unloving, impossible.”  These are the times to trust God the greatest, but know this-

His will is always best.

His directions are always right.

His way is all powerful.

The other day I came across a cute note pad in my drawer. It was titled Things To Do. I thought, I am going to take this to my prayer closet so when God tells me what to do I can write it down, and then go do it.  So I did. That morning, in my secret place, God directed me to read a specific devotional about listening to His voice. At the end of it, It directed the reader to bring a notepad to the secret place and write down “things to do” as they listen to God. I couldn’t believe it! I laughed and laughed some more. God has such a sense of humor and is always on time! things to do

Can you think of any better thing that sitting down with the Commander and Chief, the God of the Universe, All knowing, All Powerful, and getting directives from Him?!

Friends, It will happen if you just position yourself! True servants are found sitting at His feet…”Where I am, there my servant will be also” John 12:26

So today, I want to encourage you to remember what God has done and know that He wants to do more! It is a journey but there is no greater journey than knowing and doing the will of God. This is the only way to truly experience Him and walk with Him and what a blessed, full life of joy it is!

Position…Listen…Obey…Do…and Be Blessed!

P.S. don’t forget your “things to do” pad!

Jeannie

 

 

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It Is Finished!

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This past year has been less than pleasant. That is the nice “Holy Spirit filled girl” way to say it. Really, it has been very difficult. I would be less than honest if I didn’t tell you that there were many times I considered walking away from ministry. There were so many attacks on my identity, my confidence. There were attacks on my leadership. There were attacks on my relationships. These attacks were spiritual. I cried out, “Lord!”  During this time one of my journal entries read, ” I am in a place in my life where I will carry on and soar or I will sink.”  I was tired, weary. I heard, “trust me. When you don’t know what else to do just trust me.”  I committed to choose to believe that the season I was in was a small speck in time compared to the greatness, vastness, supernatural blessings my Father had prepared for my future.  Another journal entry- ” My Lord is calling me deeper, deeper, what does that mean? I’m on a journey to find out.

I began to embrace the difficulty and seek God in the midst of it. I began to see Him there. I saw Him at work. Instead of running away from my struggle, I girded up and stood still. There was a pruning going on. Jesus was teaching me that I was not being disciplined I was being pruned. He was pleased with the fruit I was bearing, but He wanted more. He was preparing me. I begin to see that the pain in my life was targeted towards my leadership-huge light bulb turned on. Of course! This must be the area God is planning greatness because the enemy was attacking it and God was pruning it to bear more fruit. He was expanding territory. Slowly my confidence started to come back. God was using so many beautiful circumstances to speak such bold truth into my life.

“I will make you a missionary of hope to many.”

You will be a voice that always brings life to others and grace to the weakest one.”

“My plan for your life will be fulfilled.”

He took me away several times in solitude to hear His whispers that healed my heart and soul! Oh, there have been so many God stories! My word for 2018 was Abundant. It did not seem like the appropriate word for much of the year, but oh how I was experiencing His Abundance, His nature, His love through His visitations to me. My journal writing began to change. I wrote, “My dearest Jeannie, forget the former things. Do not dwell on the past anymore. I am doing a new thing! Don’t wander this desert anymore. Take my hand, together we will cross over the stream into your promise land. There is a harvest of good things coming. An abundance. You will birth something new that you have been carrying, a gift from me. This year will end as a year of reaping and sowing. A year of connecting and disconnecting both of which are equal importance in your kingdom destiny. Abide in me, only me and you will soar on wings of an eagle. You will run and not be weary. Love, Daddy.”

I am overwhelmed by what God has done in my life through the pruning. It has only made me want Him more, love Him more. Friend, He is so faithful! please don’t ever doubt it. The pruning or discipline which ever it is proves His love!

This past weekend, I experienced a spiritual attack that manifested itself in a very physical way. I was on my way to lead an abortion recovery weekend retreat. There was a storm passing through. My van was swaying on the highway from the wind, but I was determined to lead these women to healing. I was talking with my mom and suddenly, a pain gripped the right side of my head and shot behind my ear and around my neck. The hearing left my right ear. My mom prayed for me and I hung up to call my husband. I was scared and began to cry. He prayed immediately and then said- “Jeannie, it could be the pressure of the storm in the atmosphere or it could very well be the enemy trying to keep you from experiencing a huge blessing this weekend.” I became dizzy so I got a driver.

As we got closer to the destination, I looked to see the ocean waves roaring and crashing in a way I have never seen before. The vision reminded me of the past year in my life, the storms… Once we got to the destination, I walked in and the Holy Spirit stopped me and I stood still. I looked up to see a picture hanging on the wall. It was a picture of a boat sitting still on the shore with crashing waves behind it. In that moment, I felt a warmth, like honey come all over me from my head down to my toes. As the warmth moved down from my head the pain immediately left me. When it got to my toes, I heard, “It is Finished.”

Now, I believe my God was letting me know that this season of trial was over. The pruning for this season was over and He is now preparing me to see the harvest and blessing of it all! Of course, there will be other seasons and other pruning, but this one was over.

I don’t know what season your in. I don’t know if you have experienced a season like anything I have described, but I just want to encourage you. Stand still, stand strong in the storm, whatever it is. There is a purpose. There will be fruit. There will be blessing. There will be healing! Don’t quit! Don’t give up!

“Behold I will bring it health and cure and I will cure them, and reveal unto them the abundance of peace and truth.” Jeremiah 33:6

“And I will bring the blind by a way that they knew not, I will lead them in paths that they have not known. I will make darkness light before them, and crooked things straight. These things will I do unto them, and not forsake them.” Isaiah 42:16

Sweet Blessings,

Jeannie

P.S. As I have been writing to you, I have been listening to my praise music (with ear buds) I am watching three men here working on my floor. They seem interested in what I am doing or maybe they wish I would stop singing! lol.. I whispered to my husband, “Do you think they know Jesus?” He shrugged his shoulders. Well guess what? I am getting ready to go find out!… Can I buy you guys lunch?

“You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that you should go and bring forth fruit…” John 15:16

 

 

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Graham- Sweet By & By

Yesterday…Yesterday was a day when no words could comfort only a clinging warm embrace. The hymn “The Sweet By and By kept repeating itself in my Spirit. The Scripture- “Be Still and Know that I AM GOD”- Psalm 46:10, I meditated on.

It was a day that God appointed. A day when my  son’s teen best friend, Graham would be laid to rest- on this earth only. “My soul finds REST in God alone.” Psalm 62:1.

It was a day something unexpected would happen to me and I hope for many others as well. When great sorrow strikes and a loved one is taken away too soon, you wonder… You wonder, why? Why so young? Why him? Why this precious family?

As I sat there in the service celebrating his physically short, but spiritually full lived life, I was deeply impacted by Graham. I realized that in the eleven years that I had known him and watched him grow up, it was actually the tragedy of loosing him that impacted my life more. Through this tragedy I come to know him in a greater way-through the stories of him from his friends, his family. I was able to witness the influence and impact he had on all those around him. Graham had a Savior. His name was Jesus. Graham knew Him very well. It was said that Graham’s greatest desire as a young teen boy was to conquer the task of others seeing Christ through his life. In that moment when Graham’s desire was spoken- it hit me. With uncontrollable tears streaming down my (and everyone else’s) face, Graham’s desire was reality.  Graham’s true heart was revealed-Christ in him was revealed and everyone was experiencing it. Suddenly! my Why’s? turned into Why not’s? Graham’s heart was pure. His desire’s were pure. “Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God” Matthew 5:8

Could it be that God chose Graham because his short life would change everyone around him? Could it be that through his death so many more would be granted eternal life? Could it be that through his life we all would have a greater desire for Christ to also be seen in us?

One thing I know for sure when Graham opened his eyes on September 14, 2018 he was in the presence of a Holy God. A good God. Graham’s desire for others to see Christ in him was perfected. As an heir with Jesus Christ, he was experiencing eternity that our earthly minds can only imagine and if there are any sports in heaven he was ripping them all up! Then a smile came as I thought, after experiencing heaven and meeting Jesus, Graham wouldn’t even want to come back, he may have even thought ” I wish it wouldn’t have taken me so long to get here”

The last time I saw Graham was in July. I am so thankful God allowed me some more time with him. I distinctly remember the peace that came upon me when he greeted me and I was admiring what a fine young man he had become, and when he departed the sweet hug he gave me and my husband both and he sweetly said “I love you guys.”  And that smile–it was a smile you would never forget and you couldn’t help but smile back.

Yesterday was coming to an end. As I lay in bed, emotionally exhausted  I thought of Graham’s parents again. Behind every great son is great parents. I prayed for their comfort as they are enduring a pain unexplainable. As my eyes filled with tears once again, my toddler son said “mommy are you still sad?” I replied, “yes honey.” Then he simply said at the grown age of three. “mommy don’t be sad because one day the trumpet will sound and Graham is going to come up and Jesus is going to take us all to heaven.” Me and my husband looked at each other in silent amazement. I was concerned with him throughout the day, wondering if it all was too much for a toddler to take in. I wondered if he should have even been there. Yes, I have been teaching my toddler about Jesus’ return one day, but in that moment the way his little mind was able to put Graham’s death in perspective and comfort his mommy was only the Holy Spirit.

I don’t know if you have ever experienced a great loss like the one I am writing about, but if you have let me encourage you- Look not back, but look ahead for Glory has been prepared for us. When we look upon His face we will surely know that are present sufferings are not comparable to the Glory He has in store for us. As believers what a great hope we have of seeing our loved ones again and living forever with our Savior.

“There’s a land that is fairer than day, And by faith we can see it afar; For the Father waits over the way to prepare us a dwelling place there.

In the sweet by and by, we shall meet on that beautiful shore; in the sweet by and by, we shall meet on that beautiful shore.

We  shall sing on that beautiful shore the melodious songs of the blessed; and out spirits shall sorrow no more, not a sigh for the blessing of rest. 

To our bountiful Father above, we will offer our tribute of praise for the glorious gift of His love and the blessings that hallow our days. –Lyrics of Sweet By and By.

The following scripture inspired Graham’s life. It reflected his desire for others to see Christ in him. May it ring in our ears, dance in our souls, throughout all our remaining days. “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, old things has passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17

Today’s writing is in honor of a sweet little boy I come to know and love-

Graham Alexander Wood

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See you soon buddy (Big Smile)

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What Are You Longing For?

Sweet Friends,

This morning I have been pondering the question: What do I long for? My search to the answer led me on a journey. First to this passage of scripture:

“Oh God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory. Your unfailing love is better than life itself; how I praise you! I will praise you as long as I live lifting up my hands to you in prayer. You satisfy me more than the richest feast. I will praise you with songs of joy. I lie awake thinking of you, mediating on you through the night. Because you are my helper, I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your strong right hand holds me securely.” Psalm 63: 1-8

The definition of longing is a strong persistent yearning or desire, especially one that cannot be fulfilled. A feeling of wanting something or someone very much.

So, have you personally longed for and wanted more? Do you want more for your family, your life, your ministry, your home? Is there an area in your life, maybe a calling, a desire you have been struggling with and sometimes you just cry out to God to help you? Do you sometimes feel like what you long for will never be a reality?

My search leads me to the conclusion that longing is not a bad thing, because it leaves us wanting more, but what is the more? The secret to longing and wanting more and seeing those things fulfilled is obeying and making JESUS the center of it all!

Psalm 6:3 “I am sick at heart. How long, Oh Lord, until you restore me?”

Psalm 38:9 “You know what I long for Lord; you hear my every sigh.”

Be encouraged that as we long, God is faithful. If you are feeling desperate, forgotten, weary DO NOT give up- Keep Going- The results will happen at just the right time and in the perfect way, God’s way. Wait on the Lord and look and watch Him work. Look for Him in every thing- the simple things like the sun glistening on the tree tops, the smile on your toddlers face, the peaceful sound of running water, the Bible scripture or encouraging text from friend. These are just a few of mine this morning. God is there!

Never stop longing for more of God, more goodness and mercy that can come through our lives and pass on to others. Ultimately, we will always long, because we long for something that can never be satisfied on this earth. We long for eternity! and God created us to long for that very thing.

…I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory. Your unfailing love is better than life itself… Psalm 63

Lets set our eyes on the things above where all longings will be fulfilled.

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Have a blessed day!

Jeannie

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A Yummy Cup Of Grace

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Hi Friends!

Praise Jesus that my life slowed down a little bit so I could write today! I feel completely out of wack when I am not writing. It is my favorite time with the Lord! He ministers to me greatly when I honor Him and spend time to exercise the gift of writing He gave to me. So, today He is speaking to me about a Noble Woman. What is a Noble Woman? I believe it is one who aspires to obey the Almighty God! You may find her a joy to be around because she enjoys being in the presence of the Lord. Her first commitment is to her Savior, Jesus Christ.  Oh yes! it is evident that He has first place in her heart♥♥

She knows how to prayerfully ask challenging questions that will inspire, encourage, and grow others around her. She is strong and gracious, bold and beautiful, firm and friendly, faithful and loving. If a mother, she would be a model of motherhood for her daughters and a model her son should marry. She honors her husband in front of others inside and outside the home. She quickly admits to her mistakes and voices them, therefore saving others from pain and hardship. She seeks for her life to be a positive example and influence, reflecting Christ. Lastly, is my favorite. She remains a student all the days of our life and looks upon Jesus as her teacher so that she may teach and guide others.

I don’t know about you but I am constantly seeking to be the woman described above. I want to be a better wife, mother, and friend, but lets be real, sometimes we just feel like we don’t measure up. On this beautiful day, I want to encourage you with a cup of yummy grace! God knows your heart. He knows your circumstances. He knows that you are striving to please Him. Some days we feel like we did a great job, some days not so much so. So I am going to leave you with a beautiful prayer to kick off your Mother’s Day weekend. I know that Mother’s Day can be a difficult time for some. I am very sensitive to that because for many years it was for me too. I believe we all can find comfort as we pray…

Father, I thank you that you comfort us like a mother. I thank you for the love you have poured forth into my heart through the gift of the Holy Spirit. Father, I thank you that no matter my circumstances, your love perfects and completes me. Father, fill me with the fruits of of the Spirit. Help me to plant seeds of your love everywhere I go. Father, give me the desires of my heart according to your will. Help me to be content with the circumstances of my life, because I can trust in You. Father, I ask that as I flow in your love and wisdom, all those around me are blessed by my life and ministry. I ask for your favor, compassion, and kindness. I now acknowledge  my value and that I am deeply rooted in your love and secure because you are on my side. I praise you that on this Mother’s Day and everyday nothing can separate me from your Love. In Jesus name, Amen. Now go forth and celebrate!!

“Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13

Sweet Blessings!

Jeannie

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Humble Living

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“Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up.” James 4:10

This morning I am watching the sun glisten through the tree tops. There is a stillness. There is also a stillness within me.  As I ponder on the season of life I am in, As I ponder on my journey with the Lord thus far, there is only one word that cries out from my soul…Humility. I think it is a beautiful word. I think it is a great spiritual secret. If there is one thing I strive after every day it is to be clothed in more of humility. “Humility is the fear of the Lord; its wages are riches and honor and life.” Proverbs 22:4

Then I realized, there is another word that my soul cries..Obedience. I ponder on the burning desire, passion I have for both. It is true one does not exist without the other.

Jesus is the greatest example and teacher we have of humility. The very definition of the word is- a modest or low view of one’s own importance. Jesus was of the greatest importance, He was of highest value, and authority, but yet He served, He was humble, and put more importance on those around Him and their need verses His own.

Jesus humbled himself even by becoming obedient to death. Jesus spoke, ” For I have come down (humility) from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of Him who sent me (obedience).” John 6:38.  So it is proven in scripture obedience and humility are intrinsically connected. Wow!  A person who is truly humble will find it easy, natural to submit to authority and obey. Obedience was the way Jesus humbled himself. Obedience is the means to humility.

God honors humility. He will humble us and oppose us if we are proud, but if we are humble He will give us grace and exalt us when the time is right. Our obedience is a statement of humility. God is wiser and greater in every capacity than we are therefore we should trust his decisions, judgement, and lead.

If Jesus saw fit to humble himself to a horrific death for our sins, how much more humble should we be?

If humility is something you struggle with, try first being obedient in the small things of life. If we are willing, God will call us to do something. He may ask you to be obedient to lead a Bible study, or serve in the nursery, or minister to a friend, or provide a meal for a neighbor. He is searching your heart. He is looking for willing hearts. When you begin walking in obedience your life will begin to change. You will begin to walk in a purpose and freedom you never knew existed. Then, you will long for more. The work God is doing within you will humble you, thus the connection of humility and obedience. What a beautiful thing! A reflection of Jesus!

In Obedience and Humility,

Jeannie

 

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You are Known and Loved

“Oh Lord, You have searched me and known me.” Psalm 139:1

Sometimes we don’t let people get to know us completely because we are afraid they will discover something about us they won’t like. It certainly was the case with me and my abortion experience. I hid it deeply. It was my greatest secret. I wanted to be liked, loved, approved. I had spent my childhood and young adult life desiring this. The painful secret of my abortion would surely disqualify me from these desires, at least that is what I thought.

Then one day, God gave me the opportunity to search and know Him. When I discovered His full character, it changed my life and relationship with Him. The truth is God already knows everything about us. He knows the numbers of hairs on our head-Matt. 10:30. He knew all about my abortion. He was there. My baby went immediately into His presence. Although my sin of abortion broke His heart and disregarded the plans He had for my life at the time, God still looked upon me with nothing but love, His love.

I am deeply comforted by this and I pray you are. God knows the secrets of your heart-Psalm 44:21 and He loves you and accepts you all the same. He knows who you are in public, He knows who you are in secret. He knows your fears, desires, hopes, regrets, pain, sin, and dreams.

He doesn’t accept our sin, but He does accept us, and forgives our sin. God is all seeing, all knowing, all Holy, all present. God knows us like no other. He KNOWS us, and His greatest gift is to allow us to know Him!

“Oh Father God, We praise you and thank you for searching our hearts. You know all our hopes and fears. Thank you for knowing us and loving us. May we lift up a song of praise that flows. We will try to use the words we know to tell you what an awesome God you are, but when words are not enough, to tell you of our love, listen to our hearts. In Jesus name, Amen.”

Jeannie

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Rejoice Today

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What reasons do you have for rejoicing today? Can you name a few?

It is not a new revelation. Giving praise during difficult times has always been a weakness of mine and an area of my life I have asked the Lord to grow me in. I also think a past of suffering from depression makes it even more difficult. It is easy for the flesh to soak into a pool of sorrow instead of JOY. This is why praise defeats the enemy more than anything else because when we choose to praise in difficult times it goes against the grain, the world. It is a supernatural thing that the SPIRIT gives us the strength to do.

Why should we rejoice in our relationship with Jesus?

I am learning more and more that no matter what our circumstances are we can rejoice in our LOVE-relationship with our Creator, our Heavenly Father. This is the secret of being content in all circumstances.

Why is rejoicing in Jesus better than dreaming of the day when we will be happy?

The world creates a fantasy that if we had more money, or a bigger house, or more time off for vacation, or the love of another person that we could be happy, but the reality is- the only one who can give us true happiness is Jesus Christ. He alone= JOY. He says in me you can rejoice always.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7

Rest assure that your feelings will not always match your obedience. What I mean is you may not feel like offering up praise or rejoicing in times of trouble but by doing it anyways you are walking in faith and acting out of obedience and when you do this then the feelings will follow…peace and your Heavenly Father will be pleased and proud of you!

Rejoicing with you,

Jeannie

 

 

 

 

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Into The Sea

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Hi Friends! This week I have been reminded of how to “Simply Follow Jesus” it sounds easy but lets face it, sometimes it is downright hard. Oh our heart, soul, and spirit wants to, but then there is the other three enemies: the flesh, the enemy (satan), and the world that screams in our ears..don’t go that way, BUT Jesus says the opposite! In Psalm 77:19 it says “Your way was in the sea, Your path in the great waters.”

My mind reflected back to Exodus 14 where we are told about the Red Sea crossing. Here in this passage the Egyptians were pursuing the Israelites and they were fearful. They began to complain and cry out to Moses in fear “…It would have been better for us to serve the Egyptians than that we should die in the wilderness.” Exodus 14:12 Then Moses began to cry out to God, but then in verse 13, God goes on to tell them “Don’t be afraid, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord.” Then God instructs Moses to lift his rod, stretch forth his hand, and here we see the miracle of God dividing the Red Sea. God provided a way of escape. The Israelites walked on dry land through the sea and God dealt with the Egyptians.

Where is God asking you to go today? What is He instructing you to do?

The same is true for us as it was for Moses. When we begin to simply follow Jesus, He is faithful to lead us, and through this process, miracles happen. We begin to live a life of purpose and freedom. Our life is not the same. We begin to taste Heaven on earth, to experience supernatural providence and witness supernatural events like Moses did during the Red Sea crossing.

As for me, I’m stepping into the Sea. I am walking into the impossible because it is there I will meet yet another miracle. What about you?

Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord- Exodus 14:13

If you have faith as a mustard seed…nothing will be impossible for you. -Matthew 17:20

Our help is in the name of the Lord, who made heaven and earth. -Psalm 124:8

As for God, His way is perfect…He is a shield to all who trust in Him. -Psalm 18:30

In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. -Romans 8:37

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.- Psalm 32:8

DO NOT FEAR…DO NOT FEAR…DO NOT FEAR…

In Love and Obedience,

Jeannie

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First Love: Our Future

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“Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love.”  Revelation 2:4

It is a heart piercing scripture to say the least.

First Love: Our Future is chapter 6 of my book, If You Love Me Obey. In this book I identify 6 areas in which God wants our obedience. They are : heart, mind, will, body, finances, and future.

This past week, God was speaking the above scripture back into my life. Honestly, I was confused. Last year, God took me on a journey studying this passage and I felt it was so important, the most important, that I ended the book with an entire chapter highlighting it. My thoughts were…”God I spend time with you daily, I seek your voice, your will. How is it that you are speaking this back into my life right now?” I was at a lost to say the least.

Then God directed me to Jeremiah (bookmark that chapter. I am coming back to it). God had appointed the time for me to hear the words. It all started with a conversation I had with my husband at the beginning of the week. On his knees, in front of me, he asked me a series of questions,  “Are we giving enough to God? Are we in full surrender? Are we fully abandoned to God? I was puzzled, yet spiritually stirred by his humility and questions. However, I felt confident in my answer, yes! God knows we are.

The week went on, and to say the least it was a tough one! Each day I walked through difficulty. My flesh was weakened, my body and mind was tired and the week ended with a return to this scripture ” I know your works, your labor, your patience,… you have preserved and have patience, and have labored for my name’s sake and have not become weary. Nevertheless I  have this against you, that you have left your first love. Remember therefore where you have fallen, repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lamp stand from its place-unless your repent. Revelations 2: 2-5 NKJV.

By the end of the week, God had clearly showed me that I had gotten out of balance again. The word do in this passage grabbed me. It had become the sin in my life. Too much doing and not enough obedience had gotten me out of balance. God dosen’t want our service, He wants our surrender in every aspect of our life. I knew what needed to be done. I know the obedience that needs to be applied to our life, for goodness sake, I had written a book about it, but little did I know that my greatest lesson was still to come.

God began to speak to me through a devotional reading titled: Cleanse the Sanctuary. It read. “You have gone in your own ways and have not paused to take inventory. (I forgot to take inventory) Return unto me and I will restore you. For you will walk in newness of heart. With a fresh spirit you will now serve me. For I will revive thee, bless thee, and pour out my Spirit upon thee, and you will know that it is the Lord.” Now the next part really got me,” With a WHOLE HEART have I commanded that you love me, and that you serve me with UNDIVIDED LOYALTY. 

At 3:00 am this morning I awoke and God directed me to Jeremiah. I didn’t know what to do but start at the beginning and just read until God gave me the Word He wanted me to have. And there it was in chapter 3 verse 10, …has not turned to Me with her whole heart, but in pretense..The subject of this chapter is a Call to Repentance. This was very painful for me to read. The word pretense by definition means an attempt to make something that is not the case appear true. I immediately repented to God and asked Him to make me understand. Now, there was a story being told in this chapter in regards to such sharp words. I knew God was not telling me that my relationship with Him was in pretense, but it was clear to me that God was trying to awaken me to something. The chapter goes on to repeat the words..”And you have not obeyed my voice”

The Holy Spirit prompted me to my journals and to re read chapter 6 in my book, First Love: Our Future. After doing these things. It became clear to me. I had written the words, “we are accountable to God. He knows what is best.  He knows the purpose and plans He has for you. You must walk in it. It may be painful, but joy will come.”

Well the pain, I was feeling from reading these scriptures was evident, The pain I walked through this past week was evident, but God promises that joy will come, if we are obedient. In my journal, I found entries reading ” Lord, my shriveled soul needs an infusion of hope and love.” The Holy Spirit replied,” For I have satiated the weary soul, and I have replenished every sorrowful soul.” Jeremiah 31:25

Another journal entry: “Lord, what does my future hold?” Then the words were written, There is a greater need of spiritual discipline. As I require more from you, I will require more of you.”  And there it was, (WHOLE HEART, UNDIVIDED LOYALTY). This is why I was screaming for balance. As God was progressing my work, I needed to increase my time with HIM! What has fed my soul before, will not do anymore. For as much as the Lord requires of us, much more will He require from us. God had warned me, but I had forgotten, and by forgetting and not applying, I had become disobedient. Which is why God was telling me I had forgotten my first love. All of it made sense now.

To sum all of this up, God is showing me changes that I must make in order to accomplish His will for my life. Time with Him means applying more time to every aspect of my life. For the things ahead of me, I will require a greater portion of the Holy Spirit. It will require a greater portion of balance in my heart, mind, will, body, finances, and future. I believe God wants to do greater things through me and my family, so I will press on towards the things ahead in obedience and do what the Lord requires of me in a greater way. I will maintain a teachable attitude so the Lord can teach me everything I need to know. We are going to have us a good ole’ time, Me and Jesus! I am in the obedient church! “I know your works, See, I have set before you an open door, and no one can shut it, for you have a little strength, have kept my Word, and have not denied my Name.” Revelation 3:8

I believe  God wants to do greater things through you and your family too! As we sacrifice and give God more of us (which is what He wants more than anything) He will give us a greater measure of His love. His love cast out all fear. ” Fear paralyzes us. Fear quenches the Spirit. It keeps us from reaching our greatest potential.” If You Love Me Obey Me.

God is all powerful and full of majesty and though He could show us those characteristics, He would rather show us His love. So it is fitting to end this blog, with these words. Freedom and Purpose comes from the obedience of knowing God more, loving God more, as He pours His love in us! Nothing or no one can replace it. He must remain our First Love!

In Deeper Love and Obedience,

Jeannie