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An Audience of 1!

Hi Friends!

This past week my family was on vacation enjoying a beautiful lake home in South Carolina. I started my day with prayer walks. The praise music coming through my ear phones was heavenly. It was as if no one else existed but me and my Heavenly Father. As I walked along I lifted my hands in worship and imagined what it would be like in His presence. I was so lost in the moment, I didn’t realize I was in the middle of the road and that there was a truck full of construction workers behind me patiently waiting for me to move! Thankfully they were kind and just waved as I made my way off the road. A little embarrassment sat in, but quickly I laughed as I realized I was worshipping an audience of 1. I was enthroned by His Glory, His beauty all around me and He was enthroned with me. It was such a place of contentment and I wanted to stay there forever.

I started to ponder this deeper. He is the primary audience of our whole life. He loves us and has good plans for us. Along with an audience of 1 comes the approval of only 1. The construction workers probably didn’t approve of me being in the road, but in that moment I had the greatest approval of all and thankfully He prompted me to look behind me when I did, lol.

Sometimes it’s ok to look foolish- foolish things are sometimes God things. Care less about what people think and more about what God thinks. I’m in a season of learning more about myself than ever before. Each of us have a deep desire to discover the meaning and purpose of our lives. Having a clear vision and direction for each season we are in can have a big impact on the days ahead. I’m looking forward to the days ahead, because the more I focus on my audience of 1, the more clear things become!

I pray Psalm 16:11 over you- “you will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.”

Father, you are the only one I seek to please, all of me desires to please only you my audience of 1.

In Jesus name, amen.

Jeannie

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Check Your Course

I heard it said once that to be almost in the perfect will of God is to miss it completely. I began to wonder how would one miss it completely? Honestly the thought put fear in me. Oh Lord, please don’t let me miss your perfect will for me!

Here is some good news. God Loves you so much that he won’t let you miss His perfect will. There could be delays, You may have to slow down for construction, and you may have to travel through the desert, but it’s in the desert that God will rechart you and put you back on the right path! That’s a promise! And I bet you will learn some valuable lessons during the journey. It has also been my experience that you will find miracles in the desert.

So check your course, chart it by God’s Word and focus with rigid determination.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding but acknowledge Him and he will direct your path”

Proverbs 3:5,6

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Dream Again

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Do you dare to dream?

Do you dare to follow your dream?

If you were free to dream without any fear what would you do?

My best question yet: Has something happened to beat you up a little bit, maybe something that caused you to loose hope in this dream that you know God put in your heart?

Something deep inside you knows you are the one to do it, but it has been locked up in a chamber within your heart. Your dream has been imprisoned. Every now and then a scripture you read, a book, or something someone said to you rekindles the flame of that dream so you take one step forward only to be pushed two steps back. I hope today I can help you be SET FREE to live your dream!

I am a huge dreamer and I believe even as little children God places dreams in our heart. I have been going through a season of just trying to sit at Jesus’s feet and hear His direction for my life, allow His roots to be established in my life, in my identity. You see I know the dreams in my heart, He put them there. I also rest in the fact that no one can bring those dreams into reality but God and me. He chose me for those dreams. He created me specifically to fulfill those dreams and the uniqueness of me will be the only thing that creates the culture of what that dream is to look like, feel like, because it has been established in me! So if you are struggling with trying to compete with the dream of someone else, or concerned you have missed the mark because your dream has not been birthed yet…STOP and please know that God’s time is perfect no one can take your dream, it has been created specifically for you, God had the dream in mind when He created you in your mother’s womb, and it will be established in His timing. The only hindrance to your dream is You. If you give up, loose hope, don’t believe…your dream will stay locked up. I am here to tell you your voice, your dream, can change the world! Live it!

Now, I have learned there are two factors to be considered. If your dream is truly from God: It will seem overwhelming at first, and it will be aimed at meeting a big need in the world, why? because that is our God! He is the God of the impossible and makes a huge impact for His Glory. Our dreams matter to Him.

There are many circumstances in our lives that make us feel “stuck”. I certainly have. The enemy wants you to feel stuck so you can’t move forward into the promises of God. I want you to know that no matter what your circumstances are you can continuously turn your heart back towards your dream even in this moment! The enemy uses rejection to paralyze God given dreams. This topic deserves its own blog spot, but know this you will not be able to avoid rejection in this world. However, you can change the way you react to rejection. The way you handle rejection will either lead to abundant life or living death. Also, rejection shouldn’t always be considered a bad thing sometimes it is issued by God to redirect you on different course. Sometimes, rejection can lead you to your dreams! That is a great thought!

Father, bless us! Let our souls be like a well watered garden. I ask that you give us strength, desire, passion to never stop dreaming for what sets our souls on fire. Help us to pursue you and our dreams that you have placed in our lives. Let us giggle, soak, and ponder on the what if’s… In Jesus name, amen.

“Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find…for everyone who ask receives, the one who seeks finds…Matthew 7:7-8

Jeannie

 

 

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UNPLANNED The Movie

Dear Sweet Friends,

It has been quite a while since I have written. I have missed communicating my heart to YOU. Pro- life work keeps you extremely busy and my work is demanding, but worth every effort, every battle, every heartache, and every sacrifice!

I recently seen the movie UNPLANNED. My husband and I rode home almost speechless. I have spent days processing it and settling the many emotions I have experienced. I have came to some conclusions. God asked me to write about it. Seeing how He has me up at 2:am I’m guessing now is the time:)

First of all, let me say, I encourage everyone to see the movie. Why? It is so informative, truthful, and might I say necessary to bring about awareness  of what abortion is and the devastation it brings to the unborn and women.

Second, As a post abortion woman myself, I found it difficult to watch even with the depth of healing I have had. However, I am very thankful for Abby Johnson’s story and her boldness to share it the way she does. God is using it in a mighty way. He works all things for good, for those called according to His purpose, Romans 8:28. Even though Abby spent those 8 years blinded in planned parenthood, God called her out. He is now using it all for His good. He is using it to reveal TRUTH. Had she not stayed in there as long as she had, she wouldn’t have seen and experienced all the things in which she shares in her story. To God be the Glory!

Third, I left feeling deeply burdened for all the post abortive women that will or have already seen this film and have had no healing from their past abortion. Healing from abortion is a process and it needs to be done in a safe, non judgmental environment with loving mentors that understand what the post abortive woman has experienced. There is an outpouring of love, mercy, and forgiveness, that needs to take place first from our Heavenly Father and second from others around her. Abortion scars deeply. It is traumatic. Facing it can be traumatic as well and anyone needing to heal requires the Word of God applied to their life as a healing balm.

I am thankful for the resource given at the end of the film for those needing healing and for Abby Johnson actively speaking to the hurting and giving them hope for healing. My prayer is that all post abortive women who will see this film (and there will be many) will contact the resource given or that God will intervene in another way and draw their heart to healing which I KNOW is His will. Yes! I am praying for a pool of healing and that is exactly what the Lord has been telling me is going to happen. I am so thankful for how God healed and restored my broken heart after abortion and I want the same for all others.

If you are reading this and have had an abortion, man or woman, please know there is help, healing, and great hope for you! Please contact me personally and I will help you find it, or contact your local pro life pregnancy care center and they can help you too. I pray for your courage to talk to someone. I promise, there is a life changing miracle awaiting you! Don’t fear. That is the enemy speaking. God wants to give you a new heart and new spirit. Ezekiel 36:25,26.  He will sprinkle clean water on you. He will make you white as snow. By His stripes you are healed, He has already bought your freedom and the power of sin has been overcome! God needs you to be willing. He is seeking YOU out. I can’t help you, until you make the choice to just reach out. Come sweet friend, Come.

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If you are reading this and you are considering abortion. Please stop and seek proper guidance. I am praying for you right now in this moment. You deserve to know truth and owe it to your yourself to be fully informed BEFORE you make a decision that will change your life forever. Abortion is not something you can ever take back or call a “redo” on. When a life is taken through abortion, it is permanent and the painful consequences are very real. I know because I have experienced them and I have been counseling women of all ages for years that have as well. Just recently, one of my clients, after all our efforts sadly chose abortion. She saw no other way. A few days later, she spoke these words “everything you said would happen, happened” She is in emotional pain and expressed deep regret, but is getting the help she needs to deal with her pain. Please contact your local pregnancy care center if you considering abortion and get the right care. Yes, you have a choice, but you also have a choice to choose better! I know your circumstances seem overwhelming, but there is help. Allow yourself to “feel” the joy that is deep inside of you because you are now a mother, and carrying a complete miracle and wonder in your womb. God has given him or her to YOU! for a purpose. So choose today to choose right, to choose life!

If you are reading this and you are a Pastor, please talk about abortion to your flock. Express the truth of what abortion does, it may save a life. Please know there are post abortion women in your care. They need to hear you talk about the forgiveness of abortion. Trust me, just hearing you talk about it will bring her great comfort when handled the right way and open up a door to get her the healing she needs. How do I know this? because I was that church going, serving woman in your church who was silently hurting, dying in side. It wasn’t until years later when a pastor allowed a volunteer opportunity in church bulletins that I found healing through a pregnancy care center. That encounter has led to countless lives saved. Will you consider faithfully, consistently, speaking a truthful word about abortion? to shepherd and take care of a hurting body? Isn’t it, along with teaching the Word of God, part of what you were called to anyways? Please contact your local pregnancy care center and find out how you can partner with them. They can be a great resource for you. I believe you will find it to be a a treasured relationship.

If you are reading this and you serve in a ministry that provides post abortion healing, get ready! Pray. Stand in position.  I do believe God is going to bring you many to nurture and guide to the healing and freedom in Jesus Christ.

Overall, my conclusion is this film has supercharged my passion in what I am daily called to do. It has made me more determined (which I didn’t think was possible) to see the end of abortion… and what might be God’s plan in all of this? I believe He is paving the way. All the events surrounding abortion and this movie is hitting many like a tidal wave only to carry us into a pool of healing. Isn’t it His ultimate plan to restore and reconcile all mankind, whom He created, to Himself anyways? oh yes it is! He is building His Kingdom. He is giving every opportunity to spend eternity with Him in a beautiful place called Heaven through a relationship with His son Jesus Christ. See Romans 10:9

And as far as our Creator…

“For you formed my inward parts You covered me in my mother’s womb.”

Psalm 139:13

This verse proves that personhood does exist from the moment of conception. The words confirm God’s knowledge of every life from pre-embryonic stage through death. God’s character goes into the creation of every person. “Your hands have made me and fashioned me; Give me understanding, that I may learn Your commandments.” Psalm 119:73

The depth of this Psalm speaks that we belong to God. He formed us and our mothers were blessed and chosen to carry us. Just as Jesus belong to Him, He chose young Mary to carry and give birth to Jesus. We belong to God. He formed, created, and covered us in our mother’s womb. The very truth of this is why abortion is so painful to God.

The unborn are known intimately and called out by God. Jeremiah 1:5 says, ” Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; before you were born; I sanctified you; and I ordained you a prophet to the nations.” Also the unborn possesses personal characteristics from the moment God knits them together, from the moment of conception. God looks upon the unborn as fully human.

The verse means properly to weave, knit together-meaning God carefully weaved our very parts together. It also implies protection. Once He created us He concealed us with a covering. There is such an ownership and creative design here. As our creator, before we are even born He knows the innermost of our being. He knows our thoughts, feelings, intentions. This is a beautiful thought. It is indeed a miracle only of God.

“Oh Father God, we thank you for the miracle of creating us. We thank you for your beautiful design. We thank you for your love. In Jesus name, Amen.”

Have a Life Filled Day! and take a moment today to thank your mom for choosing Life!

I love you,

Jeannie

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My Testimony- In Honor of Sanctity Of Life

 

purchased front jpg cover To read more accounts from Jeannie’s healing journey of abortion. Shattered into Beautiful can be purchased here at http://www.jeanniescottsmith.com It is a great way to give back and honor Sanctity of Life!

Dear Friends,

In honor of Sanctity of Life Sunday I am sharing a short version of my testimony of God’s grace and healing! Through my transparency, I hope you will be blessed and see God’s footprints in a mighty way! If you are post abortion, like myself, I pray through this reading you find great courage to take a step into the unknown and receive the same healing I did, because God is waiting and willing. Please contact me privately and I will ensure that you reach your destination of healing!

In 1993, I was faced with an unplanned pregnancy. I listened to the advise of a friend and a abortion clinic that forever changed my life. I chose abortion, and it devastated my life. The years that followed brought great pain, depression, drugs, alcohol, and unhealthy relationships. It was a dark time, but God was always there. I tried to run from God and every memory associated with my past and abortion. I was in great denial. God pursued me.

In 2004 I received Jesus as my Lord and Savior. My life began to change. I had a love affair with only one person, My Savior Jesus Christ. Even though I knew God had forgiven me, I struggled with the pain of abortion.

In 2005, I got married. I desperately wanted a baby, but could not conceive. I was diagnosed with “unknown infertility” whatever that is. This caused my abortion to resurface in an ugly way. My pain caused greater depression. This time my depression led me to thoughts of suicide. My marriage was barely hanging on. Then something happened- My husband lifted up a prayer asking for God to send help. Little did we know it at the time, but God answered his prayer through a local pregnancy crisis center.

I was introduced to a ministry, a group of women that walked me through a post abortion Bible study that forever changed my life! I received a miracle, healing that I didn’t even know could exist. Through that study, God spoke to me out of the book of Ezekiel 35:25-26 “Then I will sprinkle clean water on you…you shall be clean…I will give you a new heart and spirit…” Wow! it literally felt like my heart had been torn down and rebuilt! Because of what God did in my life, I gave mine back to Him and committed to do whatever He called me to. He accepted my request.

I became a counselor, abortion recovery facilitator and then God called me to  bigger tasks!

You see- I  was one of those faces you encounter in your church every week that concealed a dreadful secret from my past. I came to realize that only Jesus could pay the price for the consequences of my abortion. I was determined to cry out to God to take my biggest failure and turn it into a powerful witness that would touch the hearts of women struggling with the same issues.

In 2010, God instructed me to write about my abortion and share my testimony. As much as I enjoyed my career as a Physical Therapist Assistant, I knew God was calling me to full time ministry. I  responded with obedience and God began equipping me for my kingdom purpose. Within the same year, my book Shattered into Beautiful: Delivering the Brokenhearted from Abortion was accomplished and I received my Certificate from Abortion Recovery Training Institute. God then called me out of my comfort zone and I began accepting invitations to speak for events such as Silent No More and 40 Days of Life, as well as within churches, youth conferences, and pregnancy center fundraising banquets. Although I found my greatest joy working with women on an individual basis, God was moving me to a greater arena of ministry.

In 2011, my husband and I were chosen to be featured in the film Set Free as the lead testimony mirroring God’s love, mercy, and healing from the tragedy of abortion. Doors immediately began opening for further opportunities to share our testimony. Watch the Film here Set Free

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In 2013, I Founded Coastline Women’s Center A Pregnancy Medical Clinic in S.C. To view this ministry go to www.coastlinewomenscenter.org. I serve as CEO and have led the organization into great growth, serving two locations. My husband Carter joins me as Co Founder with his own perspective to men as they work with individuals and couples struggling with issues that arise from unplanned pregnancies and abortion.

Carter’s desire and passion for all stages of life includes a strong determination to see the end of abortion. Carter shares the experience of living with the brokenness of my abortion and how it almost destroyed our marriage. “By the grace of God, I have been given the opportunity to assist my wife through her journey of redemption, restoration, and salvation.”

Together we are committed to transform “at risk” families into thriving families. Today, I am  continuing to follow where the Lord leads. Serving now as President of the South Carolina Association of Pregnancy Care Centers.

As God has developed me, my current spiritual gifts are Pastoring, Mercy, Exhortation and Leadership. My mission is to bring abortion closer to an end each day, and simply to bring the brokenhearted to the feet of Jesus. Through this process the wounded can be restored, healed and God will be glorified.

I  begin to see how my love relationship with Jesus Christ flowed over into daily obedience and how that obedience was unleashing supernatural blessings and accomplishments in my life. I wanted to awaken others to this truth so I answered yes to another assignment by God. In 2017, my second book, If You Love Me Obey Me: The Secret to Purpose and Freedom was published.

One of my favorite quotes is “I have found that there are three great stages in the work of God: First, it is impossible, then it is difficult, then it is done.” –J Hudson Taylor

One of my favorite scriptures is “Blessed is she who believes what the Lord told her would be accomplished.” Luke 1:45, and I am most thankful that my child is in the gracious care of Jesus.

Together Carter and I stand united by God and our commitment to the Sanctity of Life. We stand firm that every life matters, has full value, and has been purposed by God to accomplish great things for His Kingdom! “For in Him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through Him and for Him.” Colossians 1:16

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“We overcome him (the enemy) by the blood of the lamb (our Savior, Jesus) and the word of our testimony”
  Revelation 12:11
All for His Glory,
Jeannie
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What’s Your Word?

Happy New Year Friends!

Another year has come to an end, but an end just means there is a new beginning! We all enjoy celebrating a fresh start…new goals, new resolutions, new words! Are you one of those who seek God for a “word” to apply to your life for the new year? I am!

If you have never sought a word, I encourage you to do so. Simply ask, God what is your word concerning your promise and plans for me this coming year? Also, ask Him for a scripture to support your word. Other questions to consider are:

What is ahead for me? for us?

What are God’s plans for our lives in the coming year? (Have fun with this and create a colorful vision board)

What promises does God want me or us to cling to this year?

I will share my experiences with you. Each New Years Eve, I spend time reading my entire journal from that year. I reflect upon what took place, the lessons I learned, What God spoke to me, the good and bad. It’s all there. I meditate and spend time remembering everything God has done for me. I praise Him for His faithfulness. I always leave room in the back of that years journal to do “final reflecting” that leads right into the New Year. I seek and listen for any final words God may have for me.

God is always faithful to give me my new word before the years ends. Then on New Years Day, I can have fun with it! Me and my husband get new journals to bring in the New Year. We spend time setting family goals, individual goals to include: Spiritual, Relationships, Family, Home, Health, Financial, Work, Hobbies, and my favorite Big Dreams! We create a vision board in color! and a purpose worksheet! OK so I am a little geeky when it comes to these sort of things, but some of my greatest spiritual journals and growth has been through divine journaling!

As 2018 came to an end, God called me to REMEMBER everything He had brought me through. If you have come through something and still standing you should celebrate and praise God! Don’t stay focused on what you went through. Its a trap from the enemy to keep you there. Remember you have already gone through it, so it is now the past, behind you.

He also called me to REMEMBER everything He did for me, His promises, and there were many Abundant Blessings!

Whatever your struggle was in 2018, the enemy meant to destroy you with it, but God meant to deliver you and use it for His Glory and for your good!

Isn’t  it comforting to remember that no weapon formed against us will prosper! As 2018 came to an end, I realized my cup was full! I learned so much- some of which I will share here with you. My greatest lessons from 2018:

  • Hard times can cripple you, or fuel you to work even harder for the kingdom.
  • Sometimes the biggest moves of God are wrapped up in the smallest assignments of obedience.
  • Overcome offense with GRACE
  • Don’t let others determine how you spend your time.
  • I identified things I will do less of, and things I need to do more of.
  • Connecting and disconnecting are necessary and both equally important for your kingdom destiny.
  • The pain of separation.
  • Stop mourning over what God has already made a plan to replace in your life.
  • The right things to do are not always the easiest things to do.
  • Slow down.
  • Don’t strive so hard that you miss your “day to day” purpose.

I have experienced grief this year in many different ways. In ministry, in relationships, in loved ones. I know you have too.

So I will share with you that the word the Lord gave me for 2019 is RELEASE! I like to define the word. Release means to allow or enable, to escape from confinement, to be SET FREE! Release allows something or someone to move, act, flow freely.

The scripture is: “Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold! I will do a New Thing, it shall spring forth, shall you not know it? Isaiah 43:18-19

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God wants us to release the past. Move on. He has new favor and supply! New fruit. New wells (Genesis 26) New opportunities. I  choose and hope you do to forgive and bless those who have wounded you.

2019 is a year of release from past pain and false definitions that have held you back!

I hope you have had a great New Years Day! I have:) There has been lots of laugh, play with my precious son Luke. We built castles with magna tiles and drank imaginary coffee that he made for me with his new coffee maker. We also drove Alexia crazy with song requests. It was also a day of chocolate cupcakes with sprinkles, rest and peace, but the greatest- lots of love!

I declare my God, you are sufficient for me! You alone restore our JOY. I praise you, for you are always working on our behalf to bring good, purpose, restoration. You are doing a New Thing!

Praying 2019 is a blessed filled year with great kingdom purpose for you and yours!

Jeannie

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Things To Do

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Dear Friends,

This morning as I was in my secret place, God asked me to go and write what I was soaking in. Obedience. Remembrance. We are in a worship series at church right now. I was remembering the lyrics to a song yesterday that really grabbed my soul and humbled me. It was simple...I surrendered for you, surrender for me. 

Last week a friend said, Jeannie, “remember. God wants you to remember everything He has done for you. Remember.” 

I am drawn to my obedience scriptures. “Whatever He says to you, do it” John 2:5

Obedience brings freedom, purpose.

Obedience unlocks abundant life.

Obedience produces greater intimacy.

Obedience changes circumstances. Obedience changes you.

I remember when God began asking me to do things…simple things, but those simple things were a test and when obeyed would lead to small blessings. This track of obedience would divinely, strategically align me for the next level of obedience which would lead to larger blessings. Through the process my relationship with God changed. It became richer, more intimate. He gave me greater insight and vision. Jesus is the greater example of obedience. He said,  I have come to do the will of my Father. John 6:38. He stayed surrendered to obey. Shouldn’t we do the same? It is a commandment, If you love me obey me” John 14:15

Of course the journey is not always easy. Jesus’s  Crucifixion was certainly not easy. God has asked me to do things that were difficult. Things that went against my flesh. Things that was hard to explain. Things that others didn’t understand. Things that man persecuted me for in public and secret. However, God was faithful to whisper to me, to guide me, to assure me that I was in the center of His will and He was pleased. I found great comfort in reading a passage in the book Experiencing God. It read, “God’s ways and thoughts are so different from yours that they will often appear wrong, unloving, impossible.”  These are the times to trust God the greatest, but know this-

His will is always best.

His directions are always right.

His way is all powerful.

The other day I came across a cute note pad in my drawer. It was titled Things To Do. I thought, I am going to take this to my prayer closet so when God tells me what to do I can write it down, and then go do it.  So I did. That morning, in my secret place, God directed me to read a specific devotional about listening to His voice. At the end of it, It directed the reader to bring a notepad to the secret place and write down “things to do” as they listen to God. I couldn’t believe it! I laughed and laughed some more. God has such a sense of humor and is always on time! things to do

Can you think of any better thing that sitting down with the Commander and Chief, the God of the Universe, All knowing, All Powerful, and getting directives from Him?!

Friends, It will happen if you just position yourself! True servants are found sitting at His feet…”Where I am, there my servant will be also” John 12:26

So today, I want to encourage you to remember what God has done and know that He wants to do more! It is a journey but there is no greater journey than knowing and doing the will of God. This is the only way to truly experience Him and walk with Him and what a blessed, full life of joy it is!

Position…Listen…Obey…Do…and Be Blessed!

P.S. don’t forget your “things to do” pad!

Jeannie

 

 

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It Is Finished!

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This past year has been less than pleasant. That is the nice “Holy Spirit filled girl” way to say it. Really, it has been very difficult. I would be less than honest if I didn’t tell you that there were many times I considered walking away from ministry. There were so many attacks on my identity, my confidence. There were attacks on my leadership. There were attacks on my relationships. These attacks were spiritual. I cried out, “Lord!”  During this time one of my journal entries read, ” I am in a place in my life where I will carry on and soar or I will sink.”  I was tired, weary. I heard, “trust me. When you don’t know what else to do just trust me.”  I committed to choose to believe that the season I was in was a small speck in time compared to the greatness, vastness, supernatural blessings my Father had prepared for my future.  Another journal entry- ” My Lord is calling me deeper, deeper, what does that mean? I’m on a journey to find out.

I began to embrace the difficulty and seek God in the midst of it. I began to see Him there. I saw Him at work. Instead of running away from my struggle, I girded up and stood still. There was a pruning going on. Jesus was teaching me that I was not being disciplined I was being pruned. He was pleased with the fruit I was bearing, but He wanted more. He was preparing me. I begin to see that the pain in my life was targeted towards my leadership-huge light bulb turned on. Of course! This must be the area God is planning greatness because the enemy was attacking it and God was pruning it to bear more fruit. He was expanding territory. Slowly my confidence started to come back. God was using so many beautiful circumstances to speak such bold truth into my life.

“I will make you a missionary of hope to many.”

You will be a voice that always brings life to others and grace to the weakest one.”

“My plan for your life will be fulfilled.”

He took me away several times in solitude to hear His whispers that healed my heart and soul! Oh, there have been so many God stories! My word for 2018 was Abundant. It did not seem like the appropriate word for much of the year, but oh how I was experiencing His Abundance, His nature, His love through His visitations to me. My journal writing began to change. I wrote, “My dearest Jeannie, forget the former things. Do not dwell on the past anymore. I am doing a new thing! Don’t wander this desert anymore. Take my hand, together we will cross over the stream into your promise land. There is a harvest of good things coming. An abundance. You will birth something new that you have been carrying, a gift from me. This year will end as a year of reaping and sowing. A year of connecting and disconnecting both of which are equal importance in your kingdom destiny. Abide in me, only me and you will soar on wings of an eagle. You will run and not be weary. Love, Daddy.”

I am overwhelmed by what God has done in my life through the pruning. It has only made me want Him more, love Him more. Friend, He is so faithful! please don’t ever doubt it. The pruning or discipline which ever it is proves His love!

This past weekend, I experienced a spiritual attack that manifested itself in a very physical way. I was on my way to lead an abortion recovery weekend retreat. There was a storm passing through. My van was swaying on the highway from the wind, but I was determined to lead these women to healing. I was talking with my mom and suddenly, a pain gripped the right side of my head and shot behind my ear and around my neck. The hearing left my right ear. My mom prayed for me and I hung up to call my husband. I was scared and began to cry. He prayed immediately and then said- “Jeannie, it could be the pressure of the storm in the atmosphere or it could very well be the enemy trying to keep you from experiencing a huge blessing this weekend.” I became dizzy so I got a driver.

As we got closer to the destination, I looked to see the ocean waves roaring and crashing in a way I have never seen before. The vision reminded me of the past year in my life, the storms… Once we got to the destination, I walked in and the Holy Spirit stopped me and I stood still. I looked up to see a picture hanging on the wall. It was a picture of a boat sitting still on the shore with crashing waves behind it. In that moment, I felt a warmth, like honey come all over me from my head down to my toes. As the warmth moved down from my head the pain immediately left me. When it got to my toes, I heard, “It is Finished.”

Now, I believe my God was letting me know that this season of trial was over. The pruning for this season was over and He is now preparing me to see the harvest and blessing of it all! Of course, there will be other seasons and other pruning, but this one was over.

I don’t know what season your in. I don’t know if you have experienced a season like anything I have described, but I just want to encourage you. Stand still, stand strong in the storm, whatever it is. There is a purpose. There will be fruit. There will be blessing. There will be healing! Don’t quit! Don’t give up!

“Behold I will bring it health and cure and I will cure them, and reveal unto them the abundance of peace and truth.” Jeremiah 33:6

“And I will bring the blind by a way that they knew not, I will lead them in paths that they have not known. I will make darkness light before them, and crooked things straight. These things will I do unto them, and not forsake them.” Isaiah 42:16

Sweet Blessings,

Jeannie

P.S. As I have been writing to you, I have been listening to my praise music (with ear buds) I am watching three men here working on my floor. They seem interested in what I am doing or maybe they wish I would stop singing! lol.. I whispered to my husband, “Do you think they know Jesus?” He shrugged his shoulders. Well guess what? I am getting ready to go find out!… Can I buy you guys lunch?

“You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that you should go and bring forth fruit…” John 15:16

 

 

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Graham- Sweet By & By

Yesterday…Yesterday was a day when no words could comfort only a clinging warm embrace. The hymn “The Sweet By and By kept repeating itself in my Spirit. The Scripture- “Be Still and Know that I AM GOD”- Psalm 46:10, I meditated on.

It was a day that God appointed. A day when my  son’s teen best friend, Graham would be laid to rest- on this earth only. “My soul finds REST in God alone.” Psalm 62:1.

It was a day something unexpected would happen to me and I hope for many others as well. When great sorrow strikes and a loved one is taken away too soon, you wonder… You wonder, why? Why so young? Why him? Why this precious family?

As I sat there in the service celebrating his physically short, but spiritually full lived life, I was deeply impacted by Graham. I realized that in the eleven years that I had known him and watched him grow up, it was actually the tragedy of loosing him that impacted my life more. Through this tragedy I come to know him in a greater way-through the stories of him from his friends, his family. I was able to witness the influence and impact he had on all those around him. Graham had a Savior. His name was Jesus. Graham knew Him very well. It was said that Graham’s greatest desire as a young teen boy was to conquer the task of others seeing Christ through his life. In that moment when Graham’s desire was spoken- it hit me. With uncontrollable tears streaming down my (and everyone else’s) face, Graham’s desire was reality.  Graham’s true heart was revealed-Christ in him was revealed and everyone was experiencing it. Suddenly! my Why’s? turned into Why not’s? Graham’s heart was pure. His desire’s were pure. “Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God” Matthew 5:8

Could it be that God chose Graham because his short life would change everyone around him? Could it be that through his death so many more would be granted eternal life? Could it be that through his life we all would have a greater desire for Christ to also be seen in us?

One thing I know for sure when Graham opened his eyes on September 14, 2018 he was in the presence of a Holy God. A good God. Graham’s desire for others to see Christ in him was perfected. As an heir with Jesus Christ, he was experiencing eternity that our earthly minds can only imagine and if there are any sports in heaven he was ripping them all up! Then a smile came as I thought, after experiencing heaven and meeting Jesus, Graham wouldn’t even want to come back, he may have even thought ” I wish it wouldn’t have taken me so long to get here”

The last time I saw Graham was in July. I am so thankful God allowed me some more time with him. I distinctly remember the peace that came upon me when he greeted me and I was admiring what a fine young man he had become, and when he departed the sweet hug he gave me and my husband both and he sweetly said “I love you guys.”  And that smile–it was a smile you would never forget and you couldn’t help but smile back.

Yesterday was coming to an end. As I lay in bed, emotionally exhausted  I thought of Graham’s parents again. Behind every great son is great parents. I prayed for their comfort as they are enduring a pain unexplainable. As my eyes filled with tears once again, my toddler son said “mommy are you still sad?” I replied, “yes honey.” Then he simply said at the grown age of three. “mommy don’t be sad because one day the trumpet will sound and Graham is going to come up and Jesus is going to take us all to heaven.” Me and my husband looked at each other in silent amazement. I was concerned with him throughout the day, wondering if it all was too much for a toddler to take in. I wondered if he should have even been there. Yes, I have been teaching my toddler about Jesus’ return one day, but in that moment the way his little mind was able to put Graham’s death in perspective and comfort his mommy was only the Holy Spirit.

I don’t know if you have ever experienced a great loss like the one I am writing about, but if you have let me encourage you- Look not back, but look ahead for Glory has been prepared for us. When we look upon His face we will surely know that are present sufferings are not comparable to the Glory He has in store for us. As believers what a great hope we have of seeing our loved ones again and living forever with our Savior.

“There’s a land that is fairer than day, And by faith we can see it afar; For the Father waits over the way to prepare us a dwelling place there.

In the sweet by and by, we shall meet on that beautiful shore; in the sweet by and by, we shall meet on that beautiful shore.

We  shall sing on that beautiful shore the melodious songs of the blessed; and out spirits shall sorrow no more, not a sigh for the blessing of rest. 

To our bountiful Father above, we will offer our tribute of praise for the glorious gift of His love and the blessings that hallow our days. –Lyrics of Sweet By and By.

The following scripture inspired Graham’s life. It reflected his desire for others to see Christ in him. May it ring in our ears, dance in our souls, throughout all our remaining days. “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, old things has passed away; behold, all things have become new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17

Today’s writing is in honor of a sweet little boy I come to know and love-

Graham Alexander Wood

Graham

See you soon buddy (Big Smile)

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What Are You Longing For?

Sweet Friends,

This morning I have been pondering the question: What do I long for? My search to the answer led me on a journey. First to this passage of scripture:

“Oh God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory. Your unfailing love is better than life itself; how I praise you! I will praise you as long as I live lifting up my hands to you in prayer. You satisfy me more than the richest feast. I will praise you with songs of joy. I lie awake thinking of you, mediating on you through the night. Because you are my helper, I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you; your strong right hand holds me securely.” Psalm 63: 1-8

The definition of longing is a strong persistent yearning or desire, especially one that cannot be fulfilled. A feeling of wanting something or someone very much.

So, have you personally longed for and wanted more? Do you want more for your family, your life, your ministry, your home? Is there an area in your life, maybe a calling, a desire you have been struggling with and sometimes you just cry out to God to help you? Do you sometimes feel like what you long for will never be a reality?

My search leads me to the conclusion that longing is not a bad thing, because it leaves us wanting more, but what is the more? The secret to longing and wanting more and seeing those things fulfilled is obeying and making JESUS the center of it all!

Psalm 6:3 “I am sick at heart. How long, Oh Lord, until you restore me?”

Psalm 38:9 “You know what I long for Lord; you hear my every sigh.”

Be encouraged that as we long, God is faithful. If you are feeling desperate, forgotten, weary DO NOT give up- Keep Going- The results will happen at just the right time and in the perfect way, God’s way. Wait on the Lord and look and watch Him work. Look for Him in every thing- the simple things like the sun glistening on the tree tops, the smile on your toddlers face, the peaceful sound of running water, the Bible scripture or encouraging text from friend. These are just a few of mine this morning. God is there!

Never stop longing for more of God, more goodness and mercy that can come through our lives and pass on to others. Ultimately, we will always long, because we long for something that can never be satisfied on this earth. We long for eternity! and God created us to long for that very thing.

…I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory. Your unfailing love is better than life itself… Psalm 63

Lets set our eyes on the things above where all longings will be fulfilled.

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Have a blessed day!

Jeannie